Media Executive and publisher of Genevieve Magazine Betty Irabor has stated that she feels stupid to have attempted suicide in the past.
In a chat with Chude Jideonwo, the mother of two detailed how she wanted to commit suicide because she felt unaccomplished.
She revealed that she took several steps to find a solution including injecting herself with steroid and visiting Yaba Psychiatric Hospital also known as Yaba left.
“Most of us had issues that we have not dealt with, for me, I always felt I was not good enough, I always felt I have not achieved enough and like a failure.
“I felt unaccomplished because, at that particular time, you’re not looking at your successes, you are looking at the little things you have not done.”
She also recalled how her husband came to her rescue when she ran into the bathroom with antidepressants pills with the intention of taking her life.
“That day, I expected my husband to go to church so I could do what I wanted to do but he was standing in my way.
“When I sensed that he was not going to church, I grabbed the bottle of antidepressants and ran into the bathroom, that could probably have killed me. I was happy that he came after me when I ran with the bottle to the bathroom, that was my first suicide attempt.”
Reflecting on the incident she said, “I feel like ‘ you’re just stupid’. I should slap myself for doing that.
Irabor also said the experience made her realise that suicide is not an act of cowardice as some people argue.
“Suicide is not an act of cowardice because I have been through that and I know that you are not a coward for trying to take your own life, because, at that time, you’re not thinking of the pain you’re about to go through or the people you’re leaving behind.
“You’re just in a bad place, you’ve had your melt down. So, you’re not doing it for selfish reasons, you’re in so much pain, emotionally, mentally. All you want to do is not to feel the pain anymore, and what seems the best option then was suicide, so it’s not an act of cowardice at all.”